I've been pretty bored and I've mostly just texted. Today I ended up texting most of the people in my phone, including Nolan, who went to school with Levi and Cory, and Kate, who lives in Troy and who I don't really know too well but I met her at the SET / Chess Tournament; actually, I met them both at the tournament. Gosh, why do I meet everyone at tournaments? Yesterday I read Wicked. It was pretty good, and it got me thinking. Not about good vs. evil, which seems to be a huge theme behind the book, but instead about how Elphaba pretty much failed at life. Oh, sure, she was a great character, but nothing turned out as planned. I liked that, it wasn't your traditional fairytale. It was realistic.
7.31.2009
Because I only want you to see
I've been pretty bored and I've mostly just texted. Today I ended up texting most of the people in my phone, including Nolan, who went to school with Levi and Cory, and Kate, who lives in Troy and who I don't really know too well but I met her at the SET / Chess Tournament; actually, I met them both at the tournament. Gosh, why do I meet everyone at tournaments? Yesterday I read Wicked. It was pretty good, and it got me thinking. Not about good vs. evil, which seems to be a huge theme behind the book, but instead about how Elphaba pretty much failed at life. Oh, sure, she was a great character, but nothing turned out as planned. I liked that, it wasn't your traditional fairytale. It was realistic.
7.27.2009
If you want to teach me how to take care of her, try to do so without calling me "fucking incompetent," especially when you usually jump to conclusions. You walk in on a situation and automatically assume that you're being called because I can't do a simple task. You don't even wait for an explanation. Why do you think I never tell you any of my fucking problems or try to talk to you?
I know you care about me. Right now, though, you're just talking, not walking. When you fucking show it, I'll shut my mouth.
I'm being immature about this. I understand that. Right now, I'm just too pissed to try to be mature.
7.26.2009
It may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Mkay, 'fore I really start my post, I just remembered something: that I don't remember a thing about Katie. All I really remember is her name, that we were best friends, and that she and Katie Kelley would say they were cousins simply because they had the same first name. I never liked Katie Kelley; I think it was because she called me ugly in first grade. xD But I remember she left the school at the end of third or fourth grade and she started out at Carver in Pod B in middle school. Helen was like "Fuck, the blonde is here." and I was like "Ha, your problem. I don't have to deal with her." I talked to her a few times in the hallway, though, and realized she wasn't as bad as I thought she was. Not long after, she got kicked out. BUT. During the SET / Chess Tournament of 2008, which was at Beverlye, I saw her pass by through the glass door and she waved at me. I think that was right after we got there and I was just standing there looking around nervously. I waved back.
Yes. I did build that up just to say we waved at each other.
Feel free to ignore my elementary school-related ramblings. I mostly just type them to sort my thoughts out. It's like I'm trying to remember a dream I forgot when I woke up.
I found some CDs earlier. I'm probably going to listen to them later. I recognize a few of the bands / singers - Maroon 5, Savage Garden, No Doubt, etc. - but some I've never heard of. Who knows? Maybe by the end of tonight (or rather, by the time I go to sleep) I'll have a new obsession.
7.25.2009
Hey there, Delilah, what's it like in New York City?
List ten songs you remind you of one (or different) person(s). No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they’re not any good - it simply must be a song that reminds you of a particular person. It could be the song you heard when you met, or maybe the lyrics just apply to the person(s). Anything goes! The only catch is that you cannot name the person(s); it has to be anonymous!
I totally stole this from Heather. I just felt like doing something different for a change. I'm in a better mood than I was earlier, anyway. :o
I. "Dirty Little Secret" by All-American Rejects
I can still recall sixth grade, when you and Laurel would sing that. I don't really like the memory, because I'd usually be sort of shunned whenever I sang it, even though I'd liked the song for quite a while and it was on the mixed CD I let you guys listen to at break, but it still reminds me of you. In a good way, of course.
II. "Afterlife" by Avenged Sevenfold
While the lyrics have nothing to do with you and me, it's still the first song you got me to listen to by A7x, and one of the few that I like by them. Everytime I hear it I think of you saying "You should listen to Afterlife. In my opinion, it's a better I-hate-you-but-I-love-you song than I Hate Everything About You. They're both still good, though."
III. "Teenagers" by My Chemical Romance
One of the good memories I have about you. When I hear it, I think of standing in your room, sort of awkwardly, while getting ready to go out with you to the movies. I remember hearing the song and liking it and wondering who it was by, but being too afraid to ask because I'd sound stupid. "Party Like a Rockstar", "Soulja Boi Tell'Em", and "Hey There, Delilah" also remind me of that night; the first two played in the car on the way there, and the last was on the radio sitting on your counter when we got back. I smiled when I heard it. Oh, and Transformers, because that was the movie we were going to see.
Although, now, anything by MCR reminds me of Levi. xD
IV. "Last Resort" by Papa Roach
Oh, man. Marianna Caverns. While it may have been in Florida, it was still fun. One of the only times I went down there willingly. This song reminds me of you in particular because you were such a dork and put your iPod next to my ear singing the song, and I just looked at you and laughed and said, "You are so lame." I remember that because Angela and Laurel and Austin were there, before everything went fucked. It was a nice day.
V. "Wait and Bleed" by Slipknot
I. Want. To. Bang. My. Head. On. My. Desk. When. I. Hear. This. Song. UGH. "Slipknot this, Slipknot that, skateboarding, Slipknot, razors, Slipknot, more skateboarding, SlipknotSlipknotSlipknot." I don't care about Slipknot and skateboarding. It's nice that those are your interests, but try shutting up for once and letting the other person talk to you instead of trying to shove what you like down their throat.
VI. "Sorry" by Buckcherry
This only reminds me of you because you'd giggle and squeal and go on about how this was your and your now-ex's song. I listened to you talk about how much you loved him, and I comforted you while you cried after he broke up with you by texting. I let you complain about how your parents just didn't "get" what you guys had, and I laughed with you when you finally got over him and he was trying to IM you to have you back. Now, that that's all said and done, I run into you at the mall and some of the first words out of your mouth are "Corey's here, we're trying to hide from him." I sort of stared at you, both because I was confused as to why you still had anything to do with him, and because it took me a second to remember you were talking about your ex, and not Cory as in Cory. And then I realized that you just have nothing better to do than get yourself caught back up in drama. Your current Myspace status proves that.
VII. "Thriller" by Michael Jackson
I don't really need to say much more. I know that if you were actually reading this, you'd know exactly why. We'd sing this at lunch - in the library - in the hallway - at PE. I'd laugh, because you always say "Thriller" so goofy. I remember how you and Cody would start singing "I'm Sorry, Mrs. Jackon". Although, I think you changed the lyrics. I don't remember. I know you texted me one night while I was walking to my room and you were like "omg let's start a remix band and name it SPONGEBOB REMIXPANTS!!!" and I was like "LOL dude, why?"
VIII. "Riot" by Three Days Grace
I've already mentioned you, but this reminds me of the night you brought that CD over and we listened to that and to Blue October and to Avril Lavigne (FYI you still have my copy of The Best Damn Thing, but I get the feeling I'm never getting it back). I don't remember much about that night, except you confessing a secret to me while we sat on the floor in silence. I kept that secret. I still do, no matter how much I hate you.
IX. "Innocence" by Avril Lavigne
Hearing this reminds me of the Fourth of July party, 2007. You've always stood up for me, and I think I took that for granted. I'm sorry. I simply wouldn't be the same if I'd never met you. I might still be innocent and shy and scared. I think you moving to Dothan was one of the best things that could have happened to me.
X. "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls
Need I say more?
7.24.2009
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
7.23.2009
Mandy used to be that girl,
7.20.2009
We're going down, down in an earlier round
7.19.2009
When the sun found the moon
7.16.2009
To days of inspiration
7.15.2009
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Oh, hell. Now I'm remembering a scene from the movie. Oh, man... xD
It was pretty awesome, even though it pissed me off that they left so much out of it. But like Heather and (I think?) Diana said, it's just better to look at the movie as a separate work.
Besides the numerous witches and wizards and Harry Potter lookalikes running amoc, there was also a Bruno impersonator and a guy in a chicken costume. It. Was. Epic. (They were in the theater... not in the movie. I'd have died if there were a guy in a chick costume at Hogwarts. Or Bruno. Especially Bruno. ... Bruno.)
Oh. And. Laurel was there. Yeah. We saw each other but we didn't say anything. She just sort of... smirked and I glared. I tend to glare a lot. Especially at three in the morning. Seriously, you don't fuck with someone who has to pee at three thirty in the effing morning, especially when they're pissed off over the lack of info in the movie and the fact that their mom texted them during the depressingest scene and therefore ruined it for them. Mhm. Laurel had me so paranoid that I was literally shaking, though. Ugh. Only two people can make me panic like that and their names start with 'L'. Although, not neccessarily for the same reasons.
Yeah, I can be sort of retarded at four AM. I probably misspelled something or said something I shouldn't've.
I just realized that Lavendar Brown's name consists of two colors... mhm. Lavender Brown. Not Lavendar. Too lazy to fix it.
I think I'll go to sleep, mkay?
7.13.2009
"Oh what the hell," she says, "I just can't win for losing,"
7.09.2009
It's not the end of the world
7.05.2009
A real-life script of how
7.02.2009
There's murder, murder, on the dancehall floor!
Will you get far in life?
[Andy, You're A Star / The Killers] "Andy, you're a star / in nobody's eyes but mine". I don't think so. o0
Will you get married?
[Maneater / Nelly Furtado] Apparently not. But I WOULD have a nutritional snack. :D
What is your best friend's theme song?
[I Hate Everything About You / Three Days Grace] D: I resent that.
What was high school like?
[Iron Man / Black Sabbath] Butbutbut. I'm not even close to high school.
How can you get ahead in life?
[Love in an Elevator / Aerosmith] LOL 'nough said.
What is the best thing about your friends?
[I'm Not Dead / Pink] They're not dead?
What is in store for this weekend?
[The Crow and the Butterfly / Shinedown] I'll be painting your room at midnight and putting all your books on the top shelf? :D
To describe your grandparents?
[Gunpowder and Lead / Miranda Lambert] Hell no.
How is your life going?
[You Oughta Know / Alanis Morissette] You should know, dammit, you read my blog. Seriously, though, this song has nothing to do with my life. xD
How does the world see you?
[Accidentally in Love / Counting Crows] Does it?
Will you have a happy life?
[Mamma Mia! / ABBA] It'll be exciting enough to exclaim "Mamma Mia!" at. I guess?
Do people secretly lust after you?
[Afraid / Nelly Furtado] I don't know, and I apparently should be afraid of finding out.
How can I make myself happy?
[Don't Go Breaking My Heart / Elton John] But... I don't make myself happy by other people not breaking my heart. o.o That's their choice.
What should you do with your life?
[Don't Stand So Close To Me / Sting and the Police] I'd rather not lust after schoolteachers, thank you.
Will you ever have children?
[I Don't Wanna Be In Love / Good Charlotte] I hope not.
What song would you strip to?
[There's a Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered, Honey, You Just Haven't Thought of it Yet / Panic! at the Disco] LOL HELL YES.
If a man in a van offered you candy, what would you do?
[Afterlife / Avenged Sevenfold] I have no clue.
What does your mum think of you?
[Barbie Girl / Aqua] ... I resent that.
What is your deep dark secret?
[A Thousand Miles / Vanessa Carlton] Irony. :P Oh so 2007. (I just realized how often I mention 2007 and yet I never explain it.)
What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
[Californication / Red Hot Chili Peppers] ... I don't want to ask.
What's your personality like?
[Kiss the Girl / Ashley Tisdale] Yes, you DO see the name "Ashley Tisdale" right there. I don't see how that describes my personality, though. x.x
What's your motto?
[Snakes on a Plane (Bring It) / Cobra Starship] BRING IT, BITCH.
What do you think about often?
[Sweet Home Alabama / Lynerd Skynard] Sweet home, Alabama / where the skies are so blueee. :D
What do you want right now?
[Kerosene / Miranda Lambert] Bitch, I want to burn this place DOWN.
AND because I'm bored and I don't want to go to bed, here are ten things you probably didn't know about me:
- I've lived in the same house nearly all of my life.
- My main character is a prostitute.
- I love Pringles so much because the guy on the can looks like Grandaddy Vinson (who passed away in June of 1997).
- I've always loved "rejects", the kinds of things other people would throw away. My favorite Barbie doll was one that had olive skin and dark brown hair, so she didn't look like all the others, and she had a very literally broken arm. My favorite Ken was one with messed up hair and my favorite Kelly was one with purple splotches on her face.
- I first started reading Harry Potter in the first grade. It took me a week to read the second book (I didn't read the first until a few years ago, actually) and I was extremely proud of myself afterwards.
- I make graphics, but I can't do that anymore because I have no art program. :l
- I say that I hate fairytales but in reality I've always sort of dreamed of a fairytale ending.
- I've been unhappy at every single dance except for the seventh grade Valentine's Dance and the End of the Year Dance, because I felt like I actually looked the way I wanted to instead of the way everyone else decided I should look.
- I am strangely proud of the freckle that is above my lip. It's weird, but I like it because it looks like Marilyn Monroe's mark. I'm just glad it's a freckle instead of a mole, though. o.o
- I like guy clothes and when I'm in stores, I usually look around in the guy sections, but I never buy anything. I love my Converse jeans because they look like guy jeans on me because they're way too large for me.