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Music Shuffle Survey

- TO TAKE THIS SURVEY, SIMPLY PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON SHUFFLE -
- AND ANSWER THE QUESTIONS WITH THE TITLE OF THE SONG THAT COMES ON -
[it's better if you don't cheat and don't skip any songs.]
What is your name? Or what should your name be?: Magnet - Megurine Luka and Hatsune Miku
How is your life going?: Tainted Love - Marilyn Manson
What is your nickname?: Daughter of Evil - Kagamine Rin
What is your theme song?: Ricochet - Shiny Toy Guns
What is your best friend's theme song?: Your Body is a Wonderland - John Mayer
How is your life going to turn out?: Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
Will you get married?: Congratulations - Blue October
Will you have kids?: Milkshake - Kelis
What will your job be?: If I Fell in Love With You - The Beatles
Did you/will you finish school?: Dirt Room - Blue October
Who is your best friend?: Dear Maria, Count Me In - All Time Low
Who is or will be your significant other?: Paralyzer - Finger Eleven
Who do you like?: I'm Not Over - Carolina Liar
How will you die?: Finale A - Rent Soundtrack
How do you feel right now?: Over the Moon - Rent Soundtrack
What is your favorite song?: I Owe You a Love Song - Shiny Toy Guns
How could you describe your parents?: Id Engager - Of Montreal
Your best friend[s]?: Today 4 U - Rent Soundtrack
Your teachers?: Relief Next to Me - Tegan and Sara
Your significant other [or crush...]?: X Amount of Words - Blue October
Yourself?: Her Portrait in Black - Atreyu
What is your best feature?: What I've Done - Linkin Park
What will you be / should you be, profession-wise?: The End - Blue October
How could you describe this survey?: Picking Up Pieces - Blue October
What makes you angry?: Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers
What makes you sad?: I Should Tell You - Rent Soundtrack
What makes you happy?: I Wanna Be Your Limousine - Black Kids
What makes you dance?: Another Day - Rent Soundtrack
What is your favorite color?: Hop a Plane - Tegan and Sara
How would you describe yourself?: Ghosts - Little Boots
Who is your worst enemy?: Life Support - Rent Soundtrack
Who do you hate?: Change Your Mind - Sister Hazel
Who do you love?: My Never - Blue October
Who do you lust after?: Sound of Pulling Heaven Down - Blue October
Finish the Sentece
I wish: Little Wonders - Rob Thomas
I want to: Should Be Loved - Blue October
I want to kill: Red Velvet - Hadji and the Turbans
I want to eat: Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
My head: Gallery Piece - Of Montreal
I am: Love Like Winter - AFI
My best feature is: Bag of Hammers - Thao Nguyen
My eyes are: Seasons of Love - Rent Soundtrack
My hair is: Without You - Rent Soundtrack
My face is: Stylo - Gorillaz
You should: Take Me or Leave Me - Rent Soundtrack
Random
Words of advice: Burn Your Life Down - Tegan and Sara
How do others see me?: Circle City Blues - Hadji and the Turbans
How do I see myself?: She Likes the Saxaphone - Hadji and the Turbans

"So.. do you text?"

"Yeah."
"Cool."

That is the grand summary of a conversation I had with Anthony yesterday before lunch. "Do you text?" Really. That's worse than last May, when my ingenious pick-up line I used on Levi was, "Do you have a cellphone?" It's only worse because I actually gave Levi my phone number, and I just sort of nodded at Anthony. Jesus Christ. I even saw Anthony today. You know what I did? I waved at him. And he didn't see me. My Uncle John was standing there and he shrugged and said, "You can't win 'em all." Thanks.

I was only at school today to pick up my assignments. I probably won't be in school the rest of this week. Fuck, right? My counselors excused me due to illness in the family.

Sunday night I slept over at the hospital, and pretty much went from there to school yesterday. I got checked out at one - right before French class; I walked in there just to hear, "-- Williamson to the office for check-out." - and then came back to the hospital with my Aunt Michelle, only to find that my mother was moved to the ICU on the third floor. I think she had a panic attack, and they felt she needed more focused specialized care.

It worried me that so many people in our family came up here to see her yesterday. My Aunt Michelle was up here, but she always is. My Uncle John came, and my Aunt Dana. My cousin Jessica and her best friend Meg, and my cousin Drew and his girlfriend. My sister and her fiance, Colt, were up here too, but that isn't surprising, of course. My Nana Joyce and Paw-Paw were up here, and then today my Nana Carole and Dave came, too. Ronald, who is essentially an uncle to me, and my cousin Haden have been up here as well.

Speaking of Heather and Colt's engagement. I never mentioned that on here. He proposed to her on July fifth of this year; it was their four-year anniversary. They plan to marry sometime in the fall of 2013 or 2014, sometime around there. I'll be the maid/maiden of honor. I've never been to a wedding before.

This is Colt's laptop I'm on, and he and Heather just got back, so I'm going to return it to them.

It's people like you that make me want to throw up.

Wednesday
Last night was the Club Fair/parent involvement night at my high school. I went with my dad, and we sat through a pointless, boring-ass intro where the ninth grade coordinator just told us shit we already knew. After that I dragged my dad over to meet my honors world history teacher, who is unbelievably awesome. I was so happy because Mr. Mitchell told him that I join in discussions in class and add to the material, and it made my dad proud - he's been wanting me to speak up more, in class and out.

We also stopped by my art survey teacher; it's her last year at Dothan High, and she mentioned that while we were talking. She said it was students like me, that are talented, have a passion for and respect art, and don't give her trouble that have made it all worth it. That made me happy too.

As for the Club Fair part of it, I joined Art Club, Drama Club, French Club, SADD (Students Against Destructive Decisions) and HOPE (Help Our Planet's Environment) Club, and I'm filling out applications for Key Club, Junior Civitans, and Multicultural Club. This afternoon was the first Drama Club meeting; I had to ask Mr. Payne to skip this SADD meeting so I could go to it. Ms. C told us about a play going on at the Alabama Shakespeare Theater; I'm hoping to go.

Saturday
Yesterday I found out that Amanda and Diekel are no longer in my PE class. It's disappointing; while I was sort of relieved (I'm not particularly comfortable around either of them) it's also irritating that I now don't have any chick friends in my half of the PE class, although there is that one chick who seems really nice. And, of course, there's Anthony, who is very much not a girl.

My mom went to a doctor's appointment yesterday, and was admitted to the hospital. She's alright - they're just doing respiratory therapy and all that. It's still sort of depressing, though. I'm up here with her now, with my sister and my aunt. We keep making trips to the in-building Subway; I love the Spicy Italian subs now.

Monday is Picture Day for underclassmen; it's also the first HOPE Club meeting. It seems like there was no real point in even starting to ride the bus, since I'm just going to have to get picked up pretty much every day anyway. Oh, and it's funny, because there's this girl named Sarah who is in almost every club that I'm in.

Speaking of eleventh graders, my cousin Jessica goes to school with me now. She went to Dothan High for ninth grade, when she decided she couldn't handle it, so she switched over to Ashford Academy for her sophomore year. I don't mind her being at the same school as me, it's just worrying me a little that our social circles might mix.

Annnd speaking of social circles, my lunch-mates are Analisa, Shawonda, Shaquille, Tiff, and Andre. Amanda and Diekel used to sit with us, but when they changed their schedules, they went to a different lunch period. Jenna sits with us sometimes, but normally she sits with her boyfriend. I feel a little like I'm too nice to Shawonda; she always asks me to get her water or throw away her plate or to give her gum, things she is perfectly capable of doing herself (I'd say that since she's deaf, it makes sense that she asks me to get her water, since she couldn't ask for it herself, but when I get to lunch she's already got a plate, so no.)

My mom may have to go on oxygen for the rest of her life. Would it prolong her life? Yes. I hate that it's gotten to this point, though. And we might have to move. We'd stay in Dothan, of course.. but we'd move into an apartment or something. Which is alright with me until I start thinking about it more. I've lived in this house my whole life. We'd lose all our dogs. I've never moved into a different house/building/whatever before. I'd have to deal with actual neighbors and not just Lee and Matt and Taylor. We'd have to decide what school zone to move to - stay in the Dothan High zone, since I already have my schedule and I've already committed to so many clubs, or move to the Northview zone, where I've wanted to go to school for the past 3-4 years, and where all of my friends are? Where everything is?

Levi told me I'd figure everything out, because I'm Rhianne. But even now, thinking about all that shit I've still yet to figure out, some things that I wouldn't even mention here or to anybody else, I'm not sure how right he is.

forty-three things

So I created a list of forty-three things I want to do on - fwoah - 43Things. I need to find people to do this shit with, like learning Swedish. I don't want to learn Swedish on my own, that'd be sort of sad. I wouldn't have anybody to talk to.

Right now I'm kind of focusing on creating a chalk mural; not just one, but several. I want to get a group of friends - of the Why-Not variety - and take tons of chalk out to a parking lot at night, and just make a huge mural. It would probably require practice and planning beforehand - to make sure it makes an amazing fucking impression - and I'd want to do not just one parking lot, not two, but every parking lot possible.

I'll try learning Italian and Swedish (and German and Chinese and so on and so on) after I finish taking French and Spanish. It'd be too difficult to try to learn multiple languages at one time.

And.. I'm eating ravioli and if I keep typing like this I'm sort of scared I'll spill it on my khakis, which I only bought a month ago. So. Later.

Tu as de la chance!

Next June, my French teacher is sponsoring a Dublin-London-Paris tour. She does a European trip with teenagers every year; I'm hoping I can go this year (and every year after that). Of course, if I do go, my sister will have to go, too. I doubt my dad can take off work for ten days, and my mother just can't go.

Speaking of my mother, she's all for me going to Ireland. All my life she's wanted me to see Ireland; but then, all her life she's wanted to see it, too - she's never been. Which is why I'd do anything just for her to be able to visit Trinity College and meet Mr. Anthony and his sons and see all those places she's read about.

Lor will possibly get to go with me, as well. If so it'll be the first time we've been able to see each other in person. Of course, since she lives in Florida, we'll need to figure out how to do that; but it seems extremely plausible. On Monday I'll ask Mrs. Sislo what she thinks about it.

Which reminds me, I have a French test on Monday. Oh, and we'll be singing Frer Jacques in class. I already know the song, since my mother would sing it when I was younger. Also, my name in French is Béatrice. I wanted Cécile, but Claudia chose it before I could.

On another note, I should probably learn sign language - especially since, at lunch, my group uses almost nothing but hand gestures. There are two hearing impaired girls who sit with us, and the partially deaf girl - Jenna - often explains some things to the (I think) mostly deaf girl, whose name I don't know, since she can't say it. She's really nice though, and so is Jenna. Spoken language is easier to learn than sign language, it seems. I've tried.

This upcoming Wednesday I'm going to the first Drama Club meeting. Even though I'm in Art until this semester ends - meaning I won't actually be in Drama until January - I'm still going to go ahead and join so that I don't miss anything. I'm sort of nervous and excited about joining; I don't want to look like a clueless dumbass or anything, but I'm still interested in it. At least Alyssa - my cousin - is vice-president, so she can sort of help me get adjusted.

I think that's about it for right now. If I have anything else to add, I'll make another post later today. (It's 3:30 PM and already looks like it's 7:00. I hate stormy weather.)